a grateful heart.

Did you know I am a selfish brat? It's true. Do you want proof? A couple weeks ago a speaker at perspectives encouraged all of us to make list of things God has blessed us with and ways to share them with others, so I sat down to write my list and ended up with a couple generic blessings and a four page rant on all the things I am discontent with in life. Nice, huh? In a nutshell- I was just feeling purposeless, dreading my everyday tasks and not enjoying being around my girls all the time. So instead of thinking of ways to bless others (since I had such an awesome attitude) I decided to pray: Make me grateful for the life I have and give me joy in our everyday life.

I have slowly been noticing a difference, even while doing mundane things like laundry (my nemisis) and picking up puzzle pieces for the 9000th time in a day. Then, when Kead got sick and had to stay home from KDO all last week, I was shocked  because instead of being bitter at her for taking away my precious "me" time I was so grateful and LOVED getting to spend the extra time alone with her. Thanks, God for answering prayer!

So, even though I will have to constantly be praying for a grateful heart, and even though I know I will (probably too soon) need to be asking for forgiveness at being discontent, I am so thankful right now for our life, and for this season with our precious girls.